We all have dreams. Big dreams. Goals that we want achieve. My dreams lately have been mostly about the future. Like, I just wan’t to be a graduated real estate agent, meet my future husband, give my son siblings. It’s all what I’m thinking about these days. But you know, I have a plan in my head.. how I’m gonna do to reach my goals. Maybe it’s going to take a couple of years, and I’m probably going to fail a couple of times before i achieve my goals, but that’s okey. That’s life, and that’s how you learn, grow.. and become a bigger and a better version of yourself.
And things take time you know.. They say that it takes 13 hours to build a Toyota and 6 months to build a RR.. Do you know what I’m saying here? Great things, they take time. And I just don’t wanna take shortcuts, or stress about my lovelife just becuse I have a goal in the future to get married. Did you remember before when I told u guys about that I didn’t even wanted to get married? But I now I see things different.. Before, I thought that people just got married ”becuse they where in love of the idea of being married” and becuse it’s a ”normal” step in a relationship. But since I have been thinking much lately about my future and stuff like that I’ve changed my mind.. I do wanna get married now but It has to be like.. totally perfect. Not in a fairy-tail kind of way, more like – If I’m getting married then I’m always devoted to him, and I always want to feel devoted to him too. Like, divorce doesn’t exist. And I know, most of the people are probaly thinking like this, but then they also do always have a thought back in their mind that ”you can always get a divorce if It doesn’t work out” and it feels like very many people see very easily on marriages these days.. like that they feel something, maybe love (but not unconditinal love) and they just settle for it and just try it out..
And I know… You can’t plan the future. You don’t know what will happend in the future. But all I’m saying (im a veeeery deep person, I belive in horoscope’s & and that everything happens for a reason.. and with that I’m also a true beliver in soulmates… and that you can feel when you just ”click” with someone and it’s your soulmate… and yeah, I also do belive in magical love, like never ending love.) and that’s why I’m not going to stress about this. Like, I have been in love before (obviously) but It has too be more than that this time. I know that it does exist. You know, when u like.. meet someone, and you know that u both feel something but maybe it’s not the right time for you or you just go through so much together and think that this will never work out, and u take roads to avoid that person but in some kind of wierd way u always end up with that person anyway even tho it was not a part of the plan – and when u do, it always feel so damn good like u are connected in a different world kind of connection. U know? THAT is a soulmate. Your roads path for a reason…and u try to avoid each other but someone has bigger plans for you so it’s impossible.. That is someone I wanna get married to. Cuz then I know. If two people/souls are meant to stay together, they will ALWAYS find their way back. No matter what.
And if not… I rather don’t get married, and stay single than being with a person just to settle, or just becuse I’m lonley or something.. No. never..
Well……. Huge speak about marriages… I’m too deep sometimes. Or.. like.. all the time. If you guys just knew, you would be chocked..